[2.19.21] Nervous

Anyone who knows me knows I obsess over my age. I don’t think I’ve truly lived yet, and with each passing year, I feel more and more like I’m wasting whatever’s left of my youth. With COVID stunting our growth for at least two years, I’m even more nervous. I had never traveled outside of the US. I was planning to finally get my passport and take a trip to Europe in the summer of 2020, until the virus came along. Now, I don’t know when I’ll be able to travel safely and and get the full European experience - sans masks, sans distancing, sans shuttered businesses and landmarks. I don’t know when the world will be normal again. Everything has been delayed, and only adds to my anxiety.

[2.6.21] Inspired

It’s always feast or famine when it comes to my level of creativity. I have an idea for two separate photo projects, a poetry book, and a novel. Given the fact the world is still largely in lockdown, and winter is doing winter-like things, it makes more sense to focus on the writing projects - if I can put down Animal Crossing and Stardew Valley for longer than ten consecutive minutes.

[1.30.21] Relieved

Finally, we’re almost out of January. I never understood why it was the longest-feeling month, but it just seems to drag on every year. Hopefully the days’ll start to go by faster, since winter is pure trash.

[1.22.21] hopeful

We have a normal human being as president again. Feels good. Hopefully the world itself will start to feel normal again sooner rather than later.

[1.15.21] Happy

Even though we’re still living in dark times, the little things are bringing me joy.

Animal Crossing is still keeping me sane, Wandavision is awesome so far (and Elizabeth Olsen in particular is absolutely crushing it), and there’s a ton of new movies coming out on streaming soon that were initially slated to come out last year.

Even though it remains unclear when I’ll actually be sitting in a movie theater again, at least there’s still content to consume, even if it’s on a smaller screen.

It’ll hold me over for now.

[1.8.21] Anxious

Don’t mind me, just waiting for January 20th to get here so we begin a return to normalcy.

I can’t believe it’s only been a week into 2021. January is notoriously slow, but it feels even slower when you’re trying run the clock out on the craziest four years in modern American history.

[1.1.21] Recharged

My first journal entry in over a year. I had nothing to write about for the second half of 2019, and didn’t have the energy to write anything for all of 2020 for…obvious reasons.

But alas, here I am, back at it. I’ll try to make an entry once a week, but I’ve been saying that for years and I’ve never actually followed through on it. Maybe this year’s the one?

Either way, I’m starting to get my mojo back. We’re 19 days away from having a legitimate president again after not having one for four years, I have plans to complete my first novel, possibly another script on top of that, and provided the world reopens by the summer, I have a few photo projects in mind I’d love to complete.

Wishing everyone reading this a very happy new year. Hopefully there’s better days ahead for us all.